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Thursday, November 26th 2009

12:10 AM

Happy Turkey Day!

Best of wishes to you all to a great ThanksGiving. May you be blessed with friends and family that love you. And of course lots of food and happiness!
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Sunday, November 1st 2009

1:25 AM

My hidden relationship

Most people who went to high school with me never knew that when I was in 7th grade; My life changed due to I went paralyzed & was told I would never walk again.

It was approximately a week after 3 8th graders tripped me when I was passing them in a race. One of the kids pushed me down. A week after this I was at home watching T.V. when a sharp pain went through my body. From head to toe my body hurt and I fell to the floor and couldn't get up. The only one home that day was my Father who was sleeping. I had to use my hands to drag my limp body to him. I was scared, crying and in pain. He called the ambulance and we went to the hospital. That day in the hospital; I was told I would never walk again. In fact they were surprised I walked when I did with the injury I had. (Blood cuts in the spinal cord with 1 internally bleeding.) I prayed to God that I would be a good person & that I would make a difference, and please let me walk. That day in the hospital I started walking. The doctors said it was impossible that I could walk. I told them I prayed to God… therefore I’m walking. The doctors said it must be a glitch & by the age of 17-18 for sure I will be in a wheelchair.

Going back to school. I didn’t want anyone to know of this. My life changed at that moment. Girls I liked in school; I stopped acting like I liked them. And girls that liked me: I would act stupid like I didn’t know what they were talking about. I remember sitting at a table with 2 girls in 8th grade and one of them wrote something about me on a desk table. Later I looked to see what she wrote. It said “Cute” … It made me very happy, but sad. I love people. I do not want to hurt anyone. Every time I thought of dating. I pictured myself in a wheelchair with her sadly pushing me. (Because of me, her life is destroyed; is how I felt.)

I think I hurt a lot of girl’s feelings with out even trying to. I feel real bad for how I left some girls hanging when this 1st happened to me in 7th grade. One day hitting on them… the next day. Cold fish. (I bet they were confused. I was)

I went from outgoing to hermit over night. It took my great friend Brian to get me back out of the shell I was hiding in. Then in high school; Amy asked me to Tolo; but I was going to be good, and tell her I only like her as a friend, so I don’t hurt her. I was told I was an a__whole for that. What!… Girls go to dances with guys all the time and do the same to the guy…. What’s different? (I do not see how.) So the next girl named Theresa that asked me to Tolo I told her I didn’t have any money for the tux. She told me she would pay for it. I still said no. Her father told me, “That I really hurt her.” Again I was an a__whole. So When Senior Prom came along I had more female friends then male friends. And I already heard many of them were hinting of whom was I going to ask to the prom. I didn’t want to hurt any of their feelings. So I asked I girl that I had in one of my classes: that I really didn’t know. She said, “No!” so I didn’t go… But I felt at the time it would be better not to go then to hurt someone. (To anyone in High School that I hurt: I’m Sorry.)

I was already 18 years old and still walking. I always had female friends. But I have a female friend who I have to thank. She was one of the few people I told my secret to. Her name was Manami. She was my 1st girlfriend, I called “My girl friend.” I found it funny I would go out with, or know many different girls that would say I’m their boyfriend. (2 at the same party sometimes) But I never called them my girlfriend. Manami was the 1st person I ever called my special someone. She was the one that opened my fear of being in a relationship and going into a wheelchair. She accepted me for who I was, I understood what I couldn’t do, but did anyway. She would protect me from lifting heavy items. And she would always make me feel like I can do it, so others wouldn’t look down on me. She never treated me like I was handicapped in front of people. Today Manami and I are still friends. She was invited to our wedding by both my Wife: Masumi and I. I thank God for her in my life. (Thank you Manami. To anyone in my college years I hurt, I’m Sorry.)

Masumi who is now my wife is the 3rd girl to propose to me. Again the fear of “The man in the wheelchair.” “Married” … then divorced. Man losses everything in a divorce even if the wife is the cheater, the drunk, the drug abuser and of course the woman could never be guilty of any sexual abuse. Only a man can be. So In this world were only the fat kid & the skinny kid can play on the titter-totter & never can any two kids the same weight (Fair) play on the titter-totter… No! I didn’t want to get married. My idea of marriage is way different then most people’s view of marriage today. 1. I think marriage is a religious thing only. If you’re not religious… Then do not get married. 2. Marriage is none of the government’s business. It is a contract between God, Man & Woman. Every one else can get tide or hitched, or partnered together. (But if you don’t believe in a God, Don’t say, or put God in the equation and get married … doesn’t make any sense.) Both the Man & Woman are equal to each other. He lifts her, she lifts him & they both look up to God to bless them. / I want to be married one time, her & I become 1 in God’s eye’s … so I wanted to make sure it would be one time.

I met Masumi in June of 1991 on my birthday. Edmond’s community college had set up a surprise birthday party for me at the orientation. So Masumi used the birthday as a way to get to know me better. (She told me her secret….) Masumi is a sweet and caring person. She has been there with me thick and thin. She even did window painting with me. Both of us would draw, paint and make up new pictures together. When my health has been getting worse, she has been there for me. She endorse a lot for me. Just before we were married. I had to go to the hospital. I was very ill. For the 1st time my friend Dan heard it from the doctor how bad my health is. He told me he had to leave to just cry. He never know I was that bad, because he knows me as a fighter. I will try my best to keep up with the best of them. (The fastest, the strongest.) And I will try my best. So he never knew how much pain I was hiding inside till he heard the doctor talking about it. But Masumi can see me, and knows even though I’m smiling… I’m hiding my pain inside. And she is always there for me. But she does everything in a way to make me feel strong. If she picks up the bag first at a store... Don’t ask me why. But it seems to be white women for some reason that have to say, “Why don’t you have him carry that for you?” or something in this matter… but Masumi smiles and says. “No I want to. It’s my work out.” (Must keep in shape.) Going back to that day in the hospital. Masumi was at my bedside with tears in her eyes. She said, “I do not care if you are in a wheelchair. I will be with you. I love you very much. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to marry you.” This, my friends; is what marriage is all about. Anyone can take a female dog and male dog and put them together to have sex. But can you have those same dogs eat out of the same dog dish? (This is the question most humans of today should be asking before they have sex.)

I love “love stories” (“Can’t buy me love”, “Some kind of Wonderful” , “Just My Luck” , So on) , but I have to say; there really is only one true love story out there that I have ever seen. That is “Note Book” (If you never seen this… watch it…Man or woman & if it doesn’t touch you: Then you are most likely an insect or an alien either one or dead; with out feelings. And if you do not have any feelings; I do not recommend you really going out with other people unless you tell them that first. So they are aware of you as a heartless person & then the only ones you will get is your own kind. Just my suggestion - LOL)

At my wedding… Yozef, Ray, Dan, Grant (Couldn’t make it due 2 mountain pass storm) were my Best men (I didn’t have any groomsmen, Just all were best men and shared in passing of the ring. Kristin, Amber, Bernadette were the maids of honor. (Again no brides maids, just maids of honor) and Narita was the flower girl. We had a great wedding. It was a poor man’s wedding, for no credit card was used. But it was a rich wedding with everything beautiful given by God.

Masumi & I known each other since June 19th 1991 and were married Nov 4th 2006 – We will be having our 4th anniversary soon, I have been off work with out pay since Aug due to more health issues and not sure when back or ever back to work. But we have been taken care of all this time. Prayer has been working. We have made, Aug, Sept and Oct bills. We were in this same boat last month with out any money to pay our $1,700 mortgage and $400 car payment plus the other bills, but God gave us the gifts to get our bills paid. My last doctor check up on my stroke issues and kidney issues have been improved. I’m praying God will bless my friends, family and I with a miracle. Please pray for us as well. (God Bless you too.)

 

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Thursday, October 22nd 2009

11:17 AM

What's New.

I'm feeling way better then I was in Aug. But still not very good. I have been in a lot of pain. But since Aug when I had my mini stroke. I am way  better! When I first had my stroke I couldn't talk well at all. In fact I forgot how to say the alphabet. My nephew Jordan helped me relearn how to speak & was at my home most of the time during this time... but other nieces & nephews took turns taking care of me while I was out per Masumi's mother was having an open heart surgery in Japan & wasn't here. We didn't have any money at all (Still don't ... I'm off work w/o pay & now all my savings is gone.) I have been taken care of by my parents (My side & Masumi's side), Kieth (My Brother) & my Grandfather who all helped me pay bills. I thank God for them... With out them. I would be with out a home.

Next week I'm going in for more tests ... I'm having an ultrasound of my kidneys, liver & bladder & will be going to Harbor View Hospital to be seeing a stroke specialist. per my strokes are with in my spine (I Have 3 blood clots in my spine) then 2 the head.

Please pray for Masumi & I. I do have faith. Per from Aug 2 - 22 I couldn't talk well at all & my family got together and prayed for me... the next day (Aug 23) I woke up speaking & able to type again. Even Before this when I was in 7th grade I went paralyzed & was told I would never walk again. that day I prayed to God to let me be a good person & to make a difference & that day I started walking. I have been told by many Dr. that per the blood clots in my spine. I shouldn't be able to walk. But by the power of God: I do. Masumi had pre cancer, so did I ...We prayed... & now We both now do not have any cancer at all. My aunt marie had cancer. We were all praying for her... today: she is cured. The prayer we need is for our health & for our wealth. All our bills for next month are due & we do not have any money for them at all. My mortgage is $1700 a month... My car payment is $400 plus insurance. another $100 (has to be Full coverage per car payments) & not including the utilities that seem to all be going up in price. (I need your prayers)

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Wednesday, April 22nd 2009

8:36 AM

I'm Sorry 4 my lack of posts

I guess I'm the only 1 that comes here any more.

I'm sorry I really do not have the time 2 B on the PC as I would love. I'm have way 2 many health issues & work full time as well as work a 2nd job @ my church. Plus if U ever saw the load of pills I take a day that put me 2 sleep... It is surprising I do as much as I do.

My Dream was to make a difference, & 2 make people happy... Working the job I do: that I rush people like numbers, & then I'm in so much pain, that all I do is sleep, that I do not even give enough time 2 my own wife... I fail... I'm sorry.

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Thursday, January 1st 2009

12:18 PM

My 1st blog of 2009!

Happy New Year 2009 to you all! It is a new year… & I hope it is a great one. So far; starting out with a great New Years Party at Doopa’s! We were all in masks & dressed up. It was great! Lots to eat and drink and be merry!

 

Tonight. Masumi & I will be going out with Vikter and Tessa, to a New Year’s Dinner. & Saturday, I will be a Katie’s and Jordan’s wedding. All sounds well. (Just as long as I sit down almost 99% of the time due to my health issues… All who know me know what I’m talking about!)

 

Grant, Masumi & I opened a corporation with in the government. We created a new political party called “BALANCE” (Balancing American Laws According to National Constitutional Equalities.) Our goal is to bring back the goal of our for-father’s: of “WE THE PEOPLE” making this nation as Democracy with in a Republic. Our goal is to create a balanced party that does exactly what it’s name is. “Balance”!

 

I’m still working a Verizon. Masumi is still cleaning rich people’s homes. And we are still trying to make it day be day.

 

We had snow for Christmas. I was Beautiful… I loved looking at it… But it really hurt my blood clots in my spine. I was in so much pain… I couldn’t walk well at all. (Or even move at that matter.) I had to take many days off work. Those days were really needed to pay off our bills. If you haven’t noticed: Masumi & I haven’t written for a long time. This is because of both of our health issues. I was out due to back issues from April to November. And Masumi was found with pre-breast cancer that had to be surgically removed. She has been going back for check ups to make sure they got it all, and she has three places in her breast where there are testing for new growth. So in March, she will have to go back for another “Ouch! Breast test”

 

Rev. Handy just adding me to his new group & asked me to join… so I did. The link is at “http://www.godlinked.com/profile­/BryanRJenks/ there isn’t anything really there yet… but I will build it up. (Thank You Rev. Handy… You are always in my prayers.)

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Wednesday, December 24th 2008

8:43 AM

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Has it been really a year since I got a chance to sit down and write something? I'm sorry about that! I have been in a lot of pain. If I sit at a computer too long it give me too much pain.

But I did want to say.... Merry Christmas! And Happy New Year!

I will try to work on posting here more often.

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Tuesday, December 16th 2008

7:38 AM

HAPPY HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

I Konw, I know, I know... I've heard it B4.... Were have U been? Well It isn't that I do not mean 2 not B here, But w/ my health the way it is, & all the work I do... When I'm @ home, I Mostly Lay Down, Or If I Go out, I take major pain killers that "Make me sleepy" (U R getting sleepy.... Follow the pain killer... Oops I mean, whatch... LOL)

This Christmas I will B working both Christmas Eve (!0:00AM - 7:00PM) & Christmas (9:00PM - 5:00AM) but will get both New Years Eve, & New Years Day off. So this does work O.K. ... I will B still able 2 go 2 Christmas Eve Dinner, & Mid Night Mass , Then Open gifts w/ family, & Enjoy Christmas dinner w/ family B4 going 2 work.... Then On New Years, I will go 2 my Friend: Dan's New Year's Party! (It will B fun, It's going 2 B 1 of those 30's style partys were every-1 wears a mask over thier face.)

 

May you have a Very Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year! God Bless You All!

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Thursday, August 23rd 2007

11:59 AM

It has been a while....

Where Have I Been?

I know you haven’t heard from me for a long time. I have been out from work since June 4th, 2007 due to back issues. I have also had an issue where for about an hour I couldn’t walk at all.

I have been going to many doctors, and have had M.R.I. , E.E.G. and other tests. Today; I’m going to see my main doctor to see if they found any new information, or if I still need more tests.

 

 

I’m sorry I do not come to my blog as much as I would like to. But I get very bad back pain if I’m sitting at the computer too long, so I try not to do this all the time.

Pray for me…. My prayer is if I and my family could be blessed with the full package. (Love, Wisdom, Wealth, Health, Holiness, Peace, Joy, Pain free Happiness.)

 

 

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Saturday, November 25th 2006

4:46 PM

Best of Wishes to a Great & Blessed Thanksgiving!

Here is a poem I made up...

It is Thanksgiving!

A day to thank the Lord for what you have been givin'

 

A time for family to share,

A day to show you care. 

 

A time to hug and love one another,

To reflect how blessed you are to have your mom, dad, sister & brother.

 

May this Thanksgiving bless you,

And follow you through to a Merry Christmas too.

 

(I just made this up... I hope it sounds O.K.)

May you all have a blessed & happy Turkey day.

 

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P.S. I really did just make up this poem.

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Wednesday, November 1st 2006

10:21 AM

My Halloween! (Oct. 31, 2006)

I had a great Halloween! ... I did something I never did B4. My wife 2 B & I went & bought toys, big candy bars, your reg. 65 cent candy bars, as well as the bite size & the little candy. We put the little candy in a black bucket, the bite size in a clear tray, & the reg. Size on an orange tray. Then we put all the big candy bars & the toys on a shelf. 4 every toy & big candy we put it in 2 a drawing w/ other pieces of paper, some papers would say “1 clear” (that would mean 1 candy from the clear tray) & another could say, “1 doll, 2 clear, 3 black” (that would mean they got a doll, 2 candies from the cleat tray, and 3 candy from the black tray. A total of 5 candy.)

 

2 bad the United States school system doesn’t help out much w/ our holidays. I would love it if Halloween, 4th of July, & other night holidays would have a late arrival the next day. (It would B nice if jobs did the same!) The reason I say this, is we may-B only got 100 kids 4 a week day, compared 2 about 300 kids on a week end. We have so many toys left over. We only gave 1 doll out of 6, 1 stuffed bear out of 4, no 1 drew 4 any of the 6 large candy bars, or any of the 5 light sabers we had. Only 2 out of the six flutes were given out. None of the army men sets were taken. 5 out of 9 decks of cards were given. 1 out of 4 yo yo’s were given, none of the 4 dinosaurs were given out. Just not enough kids went trick or treating this year.

 

I have 2 tell U about some of the fun stories. Some of the tickets would say fun things like… “Dance & U will get 2 draw 2 more x’s… or get 1 clear” or “Sing & draw 2 more, or get 1 clear” (Many other fun 1’s like this.)

 

We had 4 boys come 2 our door w/ an adult. It was later in the evening & we weren’t getting that much kids. I had them draw a paper; they each got their winnings. But since we didn’t give any of the big gifts, I said if U can make the adult over there draw as well, I will let all 4 of u kids draw again. She said, “No!” the kids started screaming, “Please!” so she said O.K. & drew again. Then I let the kids draw again. The 1st kid gets “Sing a song & draw 2 more, or get 1 clear” so he sings the “Muffin man song” & draws 2 more. 1 of his next draws is “pick 1 black of your choice, & if U eat it in front of us saying “yummy sounds” u get 10 more,” so he picked 1 candy of his choice, but the 1 he picked was a sour apple candy, so he 8 it while he was making a sour face while saying, “Ummmm Yummy” @ the same time. We were all laughing. B-cuz of his pain & suffering & being a good sport & told him 2 take 11 candies. The 4th kid got “Dance @ draw 2 more, or get 1 clear.” He refused 2 dance so he got just the 1 clear. But then I said 2 his 3 friends, of they dance they can draw 1 more. All 3 started dancing. (It was so funny.) & They got 2 draw again & got more toys & candy.

 

I hope U all had a great Halloween!

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