Beth (Whitaker) & Christopher Jacla’s Wedding
Saturday, July 30, 2011

Bride and Groom on Their Wedding Day…
Soon Together; Both, “I Do!” Will Say.

Christopher Waits in Front… Takes a Deep Breath.
For in the Back…. The Beautiful Bride; Comes Beth.

Walking Slowing, She Walks to Her Man;
Till They Are Together… Hand in Hand.

The Priest Gives Both Their Wedding Blessing Wish…
Asks Them to Exchange Rings, and Give Each Other a Kiss.

They Both Grab Each Other and Embrace…
And Slowly Lovingly Kiss Each Other’s Face.

This is Where Their Story Does Begin…
Like a “Fairy Tale Come True”… They Both Do Win.

For God’s Blessing is on Them From Above.
Gifts of Wealth, Health, Joy, Wisdom, Happiness and Love...

Is the Prayer I Wish for Their Future Together! Full of Love.
So They Will Always Be Happy, O’ Matter What is the Weather.

And Together…
 Happily Ever After; They Live Forever!

© 29 July 2011: Poem written by Bryan R. Jenks of www.WISHLAMP.com / JENKS INDUSTRIES.

“Happy Birthday Kristin!”

To someone in my heart that is dear,
today I raise my glass and give her a cheer.
For Kristin’s Birthday is here!

Happy Birthday to you, my dear friend!
I hope you like this card, I do send. 
A friendship bond; till the end.

May God bless, and be with you,
with a very Happy Birthday that is true.
And much hugs from me to you… too!

© 10 July 2011: Poem by Bryan R. Jenks to Kristin Boyd / www.WISHLAMP.com of JENKS INDUSTRIES

“My Wife Masumi… That’s Who.”

My heart goes, out to you.
My dream come true…
I love, and cherish you.

For all the things you do;
I thank God & you, for you.
Without you…
my life is full of pain and blue.

You have a way to turn,
away the pain & burn,
Like a royal fern…
that heals a rash & burn.

To you; my dear…
I’m there!
To wipe away: your tear.
And to remove: all your fear.

I’m here as your guarding light.
To love and protect you: day & night.
To show you the world… out of site.
And take you out; for a bite.

I am & will always be here for you.
My love for you: is true.
Masumi, I love you!
My wife! That’s who!

© 1 July 2011: Poem by Bryan R. Jenks of www.WISHLAMP.com / JENKS INDUSTRIES.

Here is a poem for you on your Birthday! ... (I hope you like it.)

“For That Very Special Day!”

Make a dash,
Throw up the sash…

For that very special day!

Bake you a cake…
Keep the party awake!

For that very special day!

Make a party theme!
Eat some ice cream!

For that very special day!

I wish you the best!
May all your wishes be blessed!

For today is your birthday!

So I pray your dreams come true!
And “May God Bless You!”

With a… “Very Happy Birthday!”

© 26 June 2011: Poem by Bryan R. Jenks of www.WISHLAMP.com / JENKS INDUSTRIES.

My birthday landed right on Father's day this year... I had fun & saw my Dad .... it was a great day... till later when I found out my truck was broken into.... How sad is that? (On my birthday? ... Why?)

But I do have to say I did get this real nice E-mail from my friend Kathy... That I have to Share...

E-Mail =

Happy Birthday!! & Happy Dad's day & even though you dont have children that doesn't mean your not a DAD...I've heard you talk about your nieces & nephews & I know your a great inspiration in their lives & the word DAD doesn't mean your dna flows through on offsprings vains i.e. "any man can be a father it takes a great man to be a DAD" e.g. to be an inspiration of hero if you will to younger people.

OK enough philosophizing I love ya & pray that you ENJOY YOUR DAY

Thank you Kathy! ..... I really do love it!

Who’s Birthday is it? – ME!

Party and Play.
Fun, all day!

It must be someone’s
“ B I R T H D A Y ! “

Who could it be?
This; I have to see…

Why I looked in the mirror…
And it was … M E !

© 19 June 2011: Poem by Bryan R. Jenks of www.WISHLAMP.com / JENKS INDUSTRIES.

But really!... it is not only my Birthday today!.... it is my cousin's "Beavin's & My friend Bill Vandenburg's Birthday today. - So I shall post a poem for them as well...

Happy Birthday!

Another year has past away
here again we celebrate your birthday

Wishing you the best!
May you have God with you and be always blessed.

Cake and Ice cream on the table.
We’ll eat our fill… till no longer able

Presents wrapped at your side
for you to open to see inside.

Now its time to sit and rest.
This is the part I love the best.

We sit, laugh and talk all night

About everything that just sounds right.

Till it gets late… and we have to go our way…

But wait… We wish you a Happy Birthday!

© 2009 Poem written by Bryan R. Jenks of www.WISHLAMP.com of JENKS INDUSTRIES and can’t be copied without permission and without this line included with poem.  

Angel’s Wings
Elke’s Funeral

Clouds, clouds, in the sky,

Jesus, Mary and Joseph, way up high

God up even higher, higher than that: in the sky.

With a crown: greater than the greatest of any hat.

King of kings, God is He, king of Kings, He will always be.

Angels around Him, giving praise. Angel adoring and worshiping God; in every ways.

Flying, Flying way up high, Flying all through the universe, in the sky.

Coming down to earth, coming down - to the surface of the earth.

Flying slowly through the night, flying till the house feels right.

Jesus Christ shines his light; Angels see it very bright,

Shining through: to a house in a bedroom.

Angels enter for the soul to keep… in the room is a lady fast asleep.

For this lady is the reason the angels came… Elke is the lady’s name.

All the angels around her bed, while prayers were being said.

Each angel gave her a hug and kiss, and removed the blankets real quick.

Wrapping their wings around her tight protecting her, they took her up that night.

Flying flying way up high, Taking Elke’s soul with them, To Heaven, That is why.

On a guide lit by the light of Christ, they guide.

Jesus Christ in Heaven way up high, Shines his light, for the angels to guide.

Angels, angels, Wings hold Elke tight, till she makes it to the gates of Heaven all right.

Pearls, pearls, pearlish gates of gold. So beautiful of color… no man has ever seen or told.

Elke enters the Gates to Heaven, to everlasting life with Christ above.

Elke’s Body still on earth – Rest in Peace … But her soul lives on… with God in Heaven  - Having a feast!

© 30 Feb 2011: Poem by Bryan R. Jenks of JENKS INDUSTRIES: www.WISHLAMP.com .

Dominique Had her Baby Boy today - he Weighs 7 pounds & 2 ounces & is 19 inches...

Congrats to you Dominique!

Love You!

The Truth will set you free!

It looks like my family is going to the hospital!.... My Aunt marie & her daughter Christy both have Breast Cancer, My Brother Grant & his son Austyn are in the hospital due to they both got real sick... My grand Father Fell 7 Broke his Hip... & now I with major chest pain! ...

Please pray for all of us! ..

(This letter was sent as an E-mail in May 2010, but for some reason, it got lost on the other page & I missed it till today... But I thought I would share it!)

Hey guys, Just thinking of some very happy days and laughs.  (View in Full or Wide format).   I was really surprised how many of the coffee groups I have been with, along as to so many people that have passed away.  If you notice one that is still living that is missing let me know, and if you have their email address provide it, and maybe forward this to them. 

I also want to bring up some data that some have been passed around by a few people.   Another Ofcr at the Court House have kissing with inmate in Holding area, and I was blame was pointed at me.  In Snohomish Cnty, some people had noticed that I had provided the must approved suggestions ever and in six sections.   Some persons that had retired felt I would have severed better in an Admin Position to the Cnty Counsel.  When news spread any problem or issue was used in attempt to hurry my Service Retirement to remove “…more staff look up to you and request me over Department Heads which we cannot have while you are here and command shows no confidence”.  That the examples used to the Cnty Exec and Counsel was that I take over appointments in positions and removing upper management was threatened.  They wrote up documents saying I did anything and everything.   I was also pointed out I had already the 25 years with my almost 27 credit years for working sick relief from so many agencies [12 in WA].  As with all families and friends some do end up booked and even convicted and items twisted to suggest violations occurred due to my Law Enfc posts, and they did and would continue to make evidence as long as it took to have me terminated or retire to remove me as a threat to management no confidence.   While this was happening, I had contracted Left lung, and spinal tuberculosis eaten spine from an inmate involved contact and was looking at options just before all of this how to stop dropping on the floor.   I took my service retirement with the 26 Credit years, and took both my Service Retired Permanent Commissioned Letters for new hire Dpty and old Ofcr shields and Id.  While taking another agency Ofcr Service Retired Perm Comm. /Co Cmdr. While most of you know now, I died many times in my life and being shot several times and in military took head and bullet into back as intelligence Agent SAC/AIC in Europe.   So, if you saw or heard anything else, I wanted to clear that up as people have asked over the years.  Retired but unable to walk, and in electric reclined wheelchair a lot of the time.  Even sitting up starts the TB eaten spine vertebrae being like marshmallows compress from even sitting.  I was sent to California Spine Surgery Center in San Diego which they advised they do not have the technology to replace so much vertebrae, and TB makes them too soft to well, or attach anything to.  I have head pain and suffered from migraines from a government Satellite Microwave dish went life as I was in the wrong place and the wrong time and two bullets to my head.   I never made any actions that were used to do any improper actions as certain people you most would know.    By the way, if really doing the job ~ work the streets, and avoid the jails. Jails are small cities of ALL Criminal Residents: injuries are by far more in the jails or the prison.  On patrol it is so much better…  Sick you take the calls but in general you can take AND PARK THE PATROL CAR for sick breaks as required, As only eight percent of the people are criminals trying to fuck you up are spread out over the population area.   I known many that say the jail or prison is easier, but look at how many books they read, and how they do not do the job other than name only.  That is way second most stressful job is Corrections Ofcr/Dpty; Then Police Ofcr/Dpty/Agnt/Trpr’s are Sixth most stressful job in the nation.  Higher the stress destroys the immune system faster, making illness greater and harder to recover upon each illness. 

Remember there isn't any cure for TB! The medication only wraps it up, and age, illness, and stresses can eat the shell and the TB continues. This is in the CDC form you sign as they place you in seclusion six weeks.   Transport inmates with a lot of cooler air and .3 micro mask is required [very costly].  Painters masks do not provide any protections from TB and Meningitis which I have had both and are deadly, since I have had both I can tell you since each time mine was so bad and told I will die from them, and IF I live, would never walk again.  God has been good to me, I have limited walking.  But the meningitis destroyed very large sections in my brain.  Too many type of damage, made this letter a few days to write, and you see errors and I am sorry.   I just had to get the correct information out, and the true and real damage or TB and Menigitis in law Enfc. are greater than getting hepatitis A or B.

Remember in Facebook (Grant R Jenks);   In Yahoo/360 (grantjenks); AIM/AOL (grantjenks) & Hotmail/MSN (grant_jenks), Twitter, I do not recall what it is under.

So ~ With all these ways of reaching me, Why do I only hear from Bryan and Ed???????   Well?

Now: Hit the REPLY ALL BUTTON, and Tell us all what is going on that has you unable to reply….   In the Hospital, Too Well to Call, Crazy, You know ~ all the regular reasons.

Grant

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Monday - Jan. 3, 2011

     After the NEW YEAR'S Party I was in a lot of pain. I stayed in bed Most of the time. Didn't do much of anything...

     HOLIDAY: Thermost Holy name of Jesus (Christian)
     Frnd's B-Day: Shiela Rusack

Tuesday - Jan. 4, 2011

     Still in bed (I think this is the day I went to the hospital... not sure... I do not remember)

     HOLIDAY: St. Elizibeth Ann  Seten (Christian)

Wednesday - Jan. 5, 2011

     I might of went to the hospital this day or the day before... But I think it was the day before & we went out to celebrate Keith's Birthday a day early & that is why I'm all messed up... I remember having the hospital tag on my arm while being in the Black Angus Restaurant celebrating Keith's Birthday... But If I'm not mistaken we celebrated his Birthday a day before.

     What do I know? (LOL)

     HOLIDAY: St. john Nevman (Christian)

Thursday - Jan. 6, 2011

     "My little brother's birthday" & "Epiphany" ("3 King's Day" - or another name is "The Last day Day of Christmas" - to all those who celebrate the Christian way of the "12 Days of Christmas.")

     HOLIDAYS:  3 King's Day
                               Blessed Andre` Bessette Day

     B-Day:        Keith Jenks

Friday - Jan. 7, 2011

     My Niece Amber came over w/ my little nephew Anthony (Her son/ Also my God son!)). It was great to see them. Amber stayed for a while to talk, but had plans with her friends, and Anthony stayed with Masumi & I...We watched movies till he fell asleep. (Crash!)

     This day is also a good friend of mine... Eric Adams since middle school... Since he moved to IL I haven't seen him for years. I heard he moved back to Seattle area, but I haven't heard from him.... I hope he is doing O.K.... I hope he had a great B-day! ...

     HOLIDAY: St. Ray-mond of Perfiafort

     B-Day:      Eric Adams (As posted above)

Saturday - Jan. 8, 2011

     In the morning Amber (My Niece) came to pick up Anthony... "HE WAS GONE!....

     NOT!.... Scared you... didn't I? .... Now really... back to the "TRUE STORY" he was there! ... & we went to Denny's & had breakfast... It was fun... Later that night I went to a party at Cathy & Ed's it was a "Epiphany - to the end of Christmas this Season Party" - It was very fun...

Sunday - Jan. 9, 2011

     Sunday!.... Busy day for me.... In the mornings My wife & I do Religious Education from 9AM - 11:15AM (Sometimes longer becasue we do not leve till all kids are counted for... so if a parent is late... we can't leave till that perant picks up that child for that child's safety.) Then from 11:30AM - 12:30PM I am a Usher & Eucharistic Minister - but on this day... 2 parents were late... so for church... so was I late! ... But I made it just in time for the colletion & communion. (It all worked out!) .... After mass I'm in charge of Coffee & donute... For this day I scheduled Tom & Lisa to do it... (Not me!.... wee! - I get a little freedom... but I know they live far... to even though they do the coffee & donutes.... I will be closing up for them.)

     After mass... we sit with the family and talk... it is the only day my family is together it seems.... but even then just some of us... I would love to get us all together for a day... it would be great.

     This day is also my sister (Sis-in-law - but I call her my sister) Tracy's B-Day... I didn't get to see her, or hear from her due to I do not know were she is... I think she is in Eastern WA in Spokane... But I'm not sure.

     HOLIDAY: Baptism of the Lord (Christian)

     B-Day:     Tracy Jenks (Noted Above)

Jan. 2 2011
The Squires Investiture at St. Mary’s in Marysville at 4:30PM!

IT NEVER HAPPENED!

Why? The kids came to the 11:30 Mass but mom was late & forgot about it and needed to go to the evening mass the same time they would be getting their investiture. So I have no way of knowing when this will ever happen!

I do not get it… other people get things to fall right into place very easy for them… Me… it seems as if I hit every sticker bush & gets trapped in it trying to do anything… (I try, try, try & fail… Try again & fail again… For all the things I try & fail… I really must be a real idiot not to get it in my thick skull that God doesn’t want me to EVER make it in anything I try… because every time something goes wrong…. 99.99% it is never something I did that was the reason it failed! … I do not know what much more I can do when I give it in writing, see them at Denny’s, person to person & remind them every Sunday @ church & get… “I forgot!” )

Today was  “NO CLASS” & was going to be “NO COFFEE & DONUTS” because I couldn’t find one person to call me back for the schedule. But Thanks to Sharron (Who brings in the donuts.) She did it for me. Thank you Sharron!...

HOLIDAY: Epiphany of the Lord – Lord I praise you & love you always.

Jan. 1 2011

The beginning of the year starts out very fun! Dan’s circus
Party is great! Everyone is having a blast!  Dan Rupe is the host of this party, and he does a great job setting it up with his helpers, Debra Nelson (His Girl),
Masumi Jenks (My Wife) & Bryan Jenks (That’s me!)

NEW YEAR’S THEME: “CIRCUS!”

So… Dan’s house was turned into a Circus Tent, and his
garage into a carnival full of game (We made w/ gifts for the winners.)

P.S. Special Notes of this Day: It is also the same holiday as “Mary, Mother of God” & the last day of the celebration of “Kwanzaa” / B-DAYS: Happy Birthday Liz & Heidi (Both of Starbucks!)

I'm sooo glad it didn't rain during Halloween! It is so fun giving out candy and toys to the kids for Halloween.

I do it a little different then most. I have the child draw a paper first. on that paper it will tell them to get a candy, or a punch of candy, even big candy or candy with a toy. or it will have them play a game to win even bigger candy or bigger toys. Sometimes they have to act like the character they are dressed up as to get the toy or bigger candy... so most of the kids do it. if they refuse... they get 1 small candy. (Very small!) So most kids do it... they scream, dance, act their part or what ever it says... & it is really fun.

I started doing this 4 years ago... I wanted to do something really fun for the kids. I really wanted to give out "BIG CANDY" - but I'm not rich! I can't pay to give every kid a big candy... so I thought of a way that would allow many kids to get some, but be fair! a drawing. each kid draws for a paper equally; and each paper is something of a win.

I had a boy get a draw... "LOSS A TURN" - get a magic wand pencil & go to the end of the line a go again... He did... His second time around he got a draw with "Roll Em" and played the game & he won... He won a 4.4 oz candy bar! I was so happy for him! - That I bet was a story for his friends at school & his family at home!

Another girl got the "Roll Em" she was playing for the chance to win a "4.4 oz candy bar... but the ball landed on the "Double zeros" - do you know what that meant? ... she didn't get a 4.4 oz bar... she got a bar that was like double its size! Called the "2 Buck Bar!" that came with a tooth brush! ... so before I showed her what she won... I asked her... do you brush your teeth? .. & she said, "Yes!" ... & I replied, "Cause you won a brand new tooth brush!" (Her eyes are only on the candy bar of course!)

If I was rich I would love to do this type of stuff all the time> I would make it my way of living. I guess that is why I created WISHLAMP.com My heart is always wanting to help others. But since I really do not have the funds or the health to help anyone... I had to create my website to have other help others.

Today is "All Souls Day" so for all the good souls out there... I pray for you all to have a blessed and very happy life.

Sincerely,

Bryan R. Jenks
JENKS INDUSTRIES
Creator of www.WISHLAMP.com

Roo, Roo, Roo:
 Happy Birthday Kangaroo
(A Poem From Bryan Jenks to his Wife Masumi for her 40^th Birthday, 2010)

Roo, Roo, Roo…
Happy Birthday to you!
You are my little Kangaroo!

I love you,
that is true.
You are so tiny and so cute!

So I am wishing to you…
A Happy Birthday, Little Roo!
Happy Birthday, Kangaroo!

I love you!
Yes I do!
I wish I had more, to give to you.

I’m so happy to be with you,
Full of life, and cheerful too…
we got another year together, that is new.

So just me and you:
let’s eat… and drink a few.
Let’s have some fun: just us two.

Roo, Roo, Roo…
My tiny Roo!
You are my Baby Kangaroo.

So today is the day, I tell you…
My little Roo,
Happy Birthday to you!

          And that I really do…

                    I really do Love You!

                             That Is True!

© 17 Sept. 2010: Poem By Bryan R. Jenks to his Wife Masumi A. Jenks for her 40^th Birthday (Masumi goes by nickname “Roo”, or “Kangaroo”). JENKS INDUSTRIES: www.WISHLAMP.com (This poem can’t be copied with out written permission.)

When The Hand Comes

The blood flowing through my blood clot vein
Blood pumping harder and hard to my brain
its causing my whole body to be in constant pain
no way out, nowhere to go and no work is driving me insane

I’m a fighter, and I will fight to the end. That is way I try not even use my cane

But at times the pain takes over the day
and I feel the Grim Reaper is there to take me away
while in bed as I lay
I feel his cold hand touch mine to show me the way
At that moment I get up and pray
For when the time comes to take me away
Let it be angels from Heaven to show me the way
for when it comes to the Boat toll of the Reaper: I can’t pay
No way
And in Limbo, as a ghost on this earth: I would stay.
For that is the games the Demons and the Grim Reaper play.

But the angels do it for free
if you live the way of the Lord and want Him to see.
“For He is Christ our King”
“Praise to God who made everything.”
So when the Time comes, and the angels are there to take me
My Heart, and soul, and love for God let it be
In the angel’s arms I go, Up to Heaven to be free
And the first thing I would do, is get On my Knee
And praise Lord Jesus Christ, our God O mighty
For He is the reason God made us to be
is to praise Him, Love Him & our neighbors, that’s the key

© Poem R. Bryan R. Jenks of JENKS INDUSTRIES: Creator of www.WISHLAMP.com

THANKS FOR THE DRINK!

Summer with My wife Masumi

It is fun to sit at the beach and listen to the shore
Or even stay at home by the porch door

Other days it is fun to go play
At the park, or mountains, or lake for a day

But what ever I do
I want to be with you.

Masumi my wife, you are so fine…
To go out and dine
You make my summer better then a fine wine.

With your smile,
Your happiness
And your cheer…

You take away all my fear…

You are there to wipe my tear…

You are my darling dear…

There is no one else like you in the world
No wonder why God made you in the land that is pearled

And when I look at you I see such beauty
Your pretty face,
Your heart
Your soul how it does glow

I surely do know

God made you as a gift! So…

Let the angel’s trumpet’s blow…

I look at your pictures ever since 91
I think of all our memories… Gee… How fun!

You and me…

Laugh and play

Our trust is free

Together we pray

A couple we are meant to be

            Night or Day

                        Again for you I will go on my knee.

                                    And I have to say…

                                                Masumi:

                                                            I love you! Everyday!

                                                                        To my heart… You are the key!

                                                                                    If I did it another way…

                                                                                                It would still be

                                                                                                            Even to this day….

Masumi: Again, Would you marry me?

© Poem Written By Bryan R. Jenks to his wife Masumi A. F. Jenks. / JENKS INDUSTRIES: Creator of www.WISHLAMP.com .                       

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This was jordan's costume of Woody he had for school's "TOY STORY THEME DAY" -

Look'n Good!

(I know this was already in here last year... but I'm not sure if anyone did see it... I love it .. so I posted it again! ...)

I bet no one reads or even cares what I write here...

I bet if I put my "Will" here... no one would even respond!

And even if they did read it...

Why would they care???

What have I done that has made a difference?

Everything I have ever tried... I failed!

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All I wanted to be is someone who made a difference in the world.

But everything I have ever tried failed!

* I tried to create many business', but because I was never blessed with money, They never went anywhere... I was given bad health... heart attacks, Pre-cancer, blood clots in the spine, strokes, bad kidneys,,, the list goes on... So many times I have tried to build something great... I would loss everything.... and have to start all over... In college I was working at one time 9 jobs all at the same time... trying so hard to make a difference...

I use to have an 816 credit score... but due to hospital bills that were not my fault! (I had to file bankruptcy... Now I'm a loser!... a Handicap... My Mustang was stollen, .... My website is Gone... No longer that nice looking thin guy... but now.. I'm that fat ugly guy, that can't be standing too long, or I start to sweat... and if I stand way too long... I will fall... I can't go out anywhere cause I do not have a wheelchair... I just have two prscriptions for em... I'm such a loser... I can't get one becasue I do not have the money to get even one! ... so my wife and I do not even out out really & it is becasue of me.... The loser! ... who can't work,... can't make a difference.... can't help pay the bills... - But if I die... All our bills will be taken cares of... So I pray for My wife's sake... I will die...

I tried to create the BALANCE Party to bring back "We The People" as a democracy with in a Republic... Sounds good? ... Well this loser can't do it... It needs someone God loves to do it... someone with "MONEY!" someone God really loves...

I created WISHLAMP to help others help others... is was going world wide & was doing great till in 2005 when a hatcher hatched into the system & that was the end of the real WISHLAMP.... now it has been on the bravenet... & no one likes it anymore... And with my health the way it is... I can't get it fixed & I can't get any help... (Who wants to help a cripled who can't pay?)

I have all these designs of churches, cars, house,s building, hospitals,.. you name it... But they are all a waist in a loser's head who doesn't have the "MONEY" to make any of them!!!!!!

I know our constitutiion says "All are created equal" - that means any creation - even a seed, has rights... therefore abortion is unconstitutional... But looking at what a loser I am & how I can't pay my bills right now... & can't get a job... becasue the communist part of the democratic government puts laws stating handicap people on SSD can't make over $1,000 a month... & my doctor's note is I can't work more then 8-10 hours a week due to my health... no one is going to hire me anyway... " I WISH TO GOD I WAS NEVER BORN... OR WAS ABORTED" ... I do not want to say that stop abortion prayer ever again.. I'm not for abortion... I'm agaist it... but: I really think those aborted babies are way more lucky then those who have to live a life that if you are bad you get rewarded.. but if you are nice... you are punished...

I Try to be a good person and help others all the time... that is what I do... I love helping other people... I do not understand why... I'm the one with all the problems...

I see it like this there is a class room, in the class room there is an evil student & a very helpful and nice student... The evil student has been blessed with money, good health, fast witt, and is good looking... while the nice student... is poor, sickly, dumb & ugly... well when ever the teacher needs help the teacher askes all the students who will help her????.... the nice student always raises his hand & says he will help!... But the teacher... always picks the other student... even though, the other student never even put their hand up... after the evil student comes back... the teacher rewards them for doing it... and every time... "Something is missing that this evil student was to take to the office or where ever" - So the teacher blames the nice student of what they did... they must of done something... because they wanted to do the job so bad with their hand up. (THE NICE STUDENT MUST BE PUNISHED!)

This is how I feel - But how God looks at me... I am always willing to help him... but he doesn't want my help.... But I get the punishment...

The only great things in my life... are my wife Masumi... I thank God for her... Do not get me wrong. I'm happy for my home, My family, My friends, even my cat... But God gave me even as a child this drive to make a difference, to help others, to create and build big things... I have a huge brain... In a small weak body that doesn't have any money... (It's worthless!) I do not want to go on like this any more! - I'm still willing to go on if God gives me the tools to go on... but I can't take being punched in the face all the time by someone I love.

It takes money to make money, or you can work hard for it... but when one has bad health & no money... why live? ... Why even try!... Better to die!

I went in the knights of columbus thinking I could make a difference... I can't... I can't efford the uniform & due to my health I just got the letter today... I was denied! (I tried to get in the armed services to protect our nation... they didn't want me... I tried to do the same to protect God's church... God doesn't want me...)

I'm sick of begging to God... And begging, an begging, and begging... And because I'm this nice cheerful person... Most people think I do not need help... they tell my.. "O Bryan... You will make it through!... I have faith in you!" ... as for someone else who never even had all the health issues I have had... they would give them money, a new car, a job... I see it all the time... Why... what is so wrong with me.. that people do not like to help me!!!"

The only people that helped me since my stroke on Aug. 3rd 2009, that left me where I couldn't talk, walk well, & still to this day can't feel on both sides of face & parts of my body (If anyone even cares...), are, My parents (The most) Keith (My brother, second most) David Winston (third Most) Aunt Doloras Branagan, Grandfather, Kathy Mahonney, Carlene Nelson, Charles shoner, Ray & Kristin Boyd, Jordan Jenks, neighbors Shane & Kendra Nelson, neighbors Jim & Laura, Extapa (Rest.), Jacinta Jenks, Bernadette Jenks, Christofer Jenks, Amber Jenks, Jozef Jenks, Dan Rupe, Debra Nelson, Sheila Rusack, Carman Solivan & Tom Reed (I wants to say thank you very much... Your warm gift of love means so much to me... you will never know how much it means to me... Thank you very much!)

The New Marshmallow!

Here you see all three sizes... the smallest on top and the newest large at bottom.

Now you can see them again, but this time from left to right, smallest at the left & the newest large at the right.

So one can understand the size... a thumb tack is added to the picture so one can visualize the massive size of the new large marshmallow

This is me holding the smallest Marshmallow.

This is me holding a normal sized marshmallow.

This is the new massive Marshmallow in my hands.

This is a picture of me eating a small Marshmallow.

This is me eating a normal sized Marshmallow

This is me trying to eat the massive marshmallow.

Still trying to eat it... No I can't say... "Chubby Fluffy Bunny"

Like a snake trying to eat it's food... I'm still trying to get this Marshmallow down... And still no luck on those words, "Chubby, Fluffy, Bunny" with just one Marshmallow!

Still working on it... But no luck.... it stuck... It doesn't want to go down!... It's no Fluffy Bunny here!... It's not going down quick! ...

O.K. ... I'm making progress... I think I got it down...

I did it! .... I ate the massive Marshmallow! and won the battle!

I have just made it to the highest degree in knighthood of the Knights of Columbus. - Seattle, WA

Here are the picture's of the evening.

Joe Roth & Bryan Jenks

Joe Roth, John Reed, Bryan Jenks & Lesley Reed

John & Lesley Reed

LA Hadley PSD (Master Knight) awarding Bryan R. Jenks as a 4th Degree Knigh with in the Knights of Columbus. as Masumi Jenks (Spouse) puts her right right hand on his shoulder to honor that she too will proclaim and understand Bryan's appointed potition with in the community he honors as a knight to protect and serve.

Bryan R. Jenks with his with Masumi Jenks; recieving his 4th Degree certificate by LA Hadley PSD (Master Knight) - Seattle, WA

May you Have A great Day! & May God bless you always!